If people could use just one word to describe me, I would like that word to be “determined”. I am nothing, but if not determined. That is what keeps me going. It is the fuel that drives the fire in my belly. I have CRPS. I know that. I have had to accept that. But […]

Depression and anxity can affect anyone at any time. It doesnt discriminate. It can effect you, your friends, your family.  Its hard to understand what someone is going through, unless you have been there. But then you cannot fully comprehend because everyone is different.  Everyone has their own darkness. Their own demons. The storm rages […]

Today would be Shelby’s 13th birthday. Its hard. We don’t  really celebrate our fur children’s birthdays but they get a ‘happy birthday’ cuddle and a special treat. Today is more a reminder that she isn’t here.  The tears haven’t really stopped for my girl. I miss her every day. Her second favourite coat (washed) has […]

The end of the year. And the end of another decade. I’m not entirely sure how that happened but it has. I haven’t yet worked out why the answer to the ultimate question is 42 and not 41 or 43, maybe in the next decade? This decade has had it’s highs and it’s lows, gains […]

We grow up believing that once we finish school, we won’t be bullied anymore. We look forward to the end of year 12 and escaping the ‘school yard’ behaviour. But bullying isn’t just something that happens to school aged children. It can happen to adults too. This is my truth. After developing CRPS, I got […]

I remember when we first met our beautiful fur baby girl. She was tiny. She had a stripe right down the middle of her head. I knew she was the puppy for us, even before she opened her eyes. We spent time with her almost every week, right up until the day we brought her […]

It’s amazing what you can get across in a photo, but even more amazing what you can hide. A smile can disguise sadness, sunglasses can hide the pain and torment in your eyes. A picture tells a thousand words… but not always the truth. I deliberately take photos of my head and hide the rest […]

Temperature changes, a change in humidity or barometric pressure is an every day occurance. Its fact. Weather changes. The world rotates on its axis and orbits the sun. We tend to not take too much notice unless it’s a drastic change. We reach for layers in winter and something light and breezy for summer. But […]

I really wanted to retrain myself as a counsellor after my accident. Everyone told me it was the perfect role for me as I had the right traits. I enrolled into the course and started off on a high. I soon learnt that having CRPS meant that I had to work a lot harder then […]

Sitting and talking to someone, trying to relax or having treatment can become frustrating and embarrassing for someone with CRPS. Sometimes it’s a subtle twitch that no one notices but me. Other times my leg can all of a sudden flick/jerk out. The one that I really ‘gets on my nerves’ though is a shockwave. […]